searching for a purple star

sick

2006-08-11T16:55:00.000+08:00

i'm down with stomach flu so had to skip school today.ugh somethin i so do not need right now.life aint fun when you cant make any food stay in your stomach.have i already mentioned the fact about my size (or lack of it) ?this weight loss isnt somethin i'm welcoming!thanks to all for your concern though, especially from someone who's the last person i would expect it from.its truly appreciated.
til next time, when you see a healthier verena!

hook, line and sinker

2006-08-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

what happened today was the consequence of being one of aaron's friends...oh PARDONEZ MOI, i mean BEST FRIENDS.though this saga puts me in the bad light, i have no regrets....except maybe the hurt and disappointment accompanying aaron's betrayal, lies and manipulation.
for the record, i dont go poking my nose into issues that aint mine.jane asked for our help in dealing with aaron.we were just tryin to defend her, but we were ready to 4get everythin.besides, i couldnt judge him for what he did to someone else.BUT even at that table when we were confronting him about it he lacked the guts to come clean with us, choosing to BLAME EVERYTHIN ON G.it worked.we fell for it hook, line and sinker.if we hadnt found out both sides of the story, we would have been pissed at G still.the reason why i'm livid is because he has the CHEEK to lie to us blatantly just to get off the hook by blaming everythin on G.when we wanted to talk to her, thinking he had escaped, he had the GUTS TO START SMIRKING.at us no less!to think he could nonchalantly betray us; the people he claims as his best friends?this is IT.

HE'S MADE IT PERSONAL.

shopping! <3

2006-06-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

wanqing said i should blog more often...even if it is the normal bitty details about my life.i somehow find myself agreeing with her.after all it's my blog so i dictate what i reveal aye? =)
went out shopping with vern today.thanks for the fun day out girl!we should do that again =D just give me a holler when.i've discovered i have a real fetish for SHOES...especially heels! <3 <3 <3 i can go insane over them.now that's what i call my pursuit of passion HAHA.found a few purchases-to-be to add to my collection.finally!a change to the sad fabrics i call my wardrobe.most unfortunately, self control is an essential virtue i have to learn, or my wallet will start blaring warning sirens that i will be rendered destitute very soon.
i'm definitely going to get screwed for prelims part 1.yes adeel lets fail together.thanks for your offer of company LOL.i think my mind's gone stale.not to mention sick.one moment i'm panicking over my studies (or lack thereof to be exact) and discussing math and chem with wanqing but yet another moment i'm talking about the upcoming fun programmes during the holidays with kimmy.the dizzying spirals my mind takes me to.you'd have thought i'm almost bordering on schizophrenia =s
girl i'm glad you're fine now.you almost gave me a heart attack when u 1st told me!remember the question u asked me last week?you were wondering whether time has healed...i wish it'd speed up.i dont like it being so sloooww...

pained

2006-06-01T20:20:00.000+08:00

why cant i show how i really feel?why must i always pretend?i dont want to and i'm tired of it.i want my memories erased so i wont feel pain anymore.if only that was possible.most are oblivious or think i heal at lightning speed because either it wasnt precious enough to me or that i dont care at all.i may seem quite cheerful but that's only what you think.if only you knew.

there's chem mock prelims tomorrow.crap i cant remember a single thing.HELP.anyone want to fail together with me?

holidays has lost its meaning.sadly that's a fact of life as we grow older.enhanced jaded cynicism becomes a companion, with your memories of innocence only as light gossamer wisps in your dreams.the only way to snatch these moments back from the claws of time is how you live your days and make them out to be.taken from my favourite quote from Auguries of Innocence by the poet William Blake, "to see the world in a grain of sand and heaven in a wild flower, hold infinity in the palm of your hand and eternity in an hour" is one true talent lost and rare in the people of today.

Hiding

2006-05-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

why am i hiding behind a curtain?
do you think it would have been so easy for me?
i cant just switch off like that you know.
what did you expect, for me to show how i really thought?
its all just a facade.
none can see what is behind it.

Rasalas Roars and we slaughter beef =D

2006-05-21T01:30:00.000+08:00

for the 2nd yr in a row i'm writing a similar entry on the same topic...SPORTS DAY!!! =D but compared to last year there's a HUGE difference.for one thing i wasnt THIS stressed for sure.this week's been both terrible and yet at the same time wonderful.yea yea an oxymoron, i know.stressed and frustrated from tryin to coordinate all the rasalas cheerleaders and choreographing the routine.and gettin them to be there for pratices.those who's been with me from the start certainly know how exasperating it was.truly sorry for my temper.unsightly.however as the cliche goes, there's a silver lining to every dark cloud.itz been a fantastic week cos of all the wonderful new friends i made...the Rasalas crew! =D here's a shoutout to all of u guys.
thanks Po for your work on the cheer dance!none of us would've thought of that fantastic choreography! =D
auddie my darling, i'm so glad you still turned up for practices though your parents were against it.looking at you, i know the true meaning of friendship.
jade!i love your "solo" with hakim and renjie!enjoyed watching you while waiting for my stunt haha =p
huimin and leona, thanks for all those bubble teas after practice!beautiful efforts that day and i owe u girls one for being with me all the way, tirelessly coming for every practice! <3
huixian and ash, appreciate the friendship we have here...will its flame never die out.shake more dance more and rock on in modern dance!
FIIIRRRRRRRAAAHHHHH!u cute girl and yes yes u know that very well already...u tell me that!haha dun worry about that mistake.it wasnt obvious and u did well in covering it up.sexy shaking yea!
hakim adeel and shaoxian, i owe u guys one for helping out in the choreography!especially for the guys' segment.cool moves and dressing too!haha looked like some hiphop gang.formidable!especially thanks to shao for calming down my temper and choreographing the partner dance with me, just when i had already run out of moves too!haha.
kudos to junqing iswan and mingjie for the steady support for my stunts!especially for my split mount at the end.continue breaking...though dont break your backs yar?LOL =p okie kiddin.
to renjie and jeffrey: cool moves and good energy!cute banana man!haha what an attraction!pity you in that suit though...werent you hot?
KHAI...howdy partner!you picked up everythin in one day...pretty WOW for a dancer =D rock on man!

though we got 2nd i think we all did well, and so did all the other houses.go Innova!sports day's been one of my favourite days so far this year.very fun and WOO what a high feeling! =D

RASALAS REIGNS as the King!

bravery

2006-05-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

WHO are you?nameless and faceless.( i do NOT count the name of your tag as one because if ur parents really gave you that, you've got truly pathetic ones. my condolences) for your sake, to give you face, you dog, i decided not to mention your initials( a certain 3 letter abbreviation, check my tagboard).if you've the guts to say that of us on our blogs why dont you just write your full name too and we'll get back to you shortly?no worries, you aint worth it for me to taint my mouth with expletives aimed at you. so i'll just say this in plain simple english, in the hopes that you, such a simple-minded prejudiced fool, will understand. i'm just SO SICK of this. oh hey, i've a fantastic idea, if you cant stand us that much, instead of the insult, why dont you slit your wrists and bleed off the face of this earth?we'll be rid of you and you wont have to see us again.a beautiful arrangement.an idea made in heaven.no?

ooh i'm having fun at your expense here haha.

lots of love.

tagged again

2006-04-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

okie got tagged by aud to do this "lover's quiz" or somethin.man the things i do for her when she tells me too...so here goes.enjoy!hahaha

My Perfect Lover instructions: the tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.specify the gender of the target.tag 5 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page sayin they've been tagged.if tagged the 2nd time there's no need to post again.

gender: male

my perfect lover

1.loves and accepts me for who I am

2.is someone i can hold fantastic conversations with

3.and yes i'm willing to admit looks do matter somewhat...LOL

4.is willing to give me my freedom

5.not only treats me well but to everyone he knows

6.will never let me be lonely

7.wears his heart on his sleeve (dont fake with me.i want only the REAL you)

8.protects, provides and will always be there for me no matter what.

kimmy, yuanru, byy, wanqing lydia.

you've been tagged!

have fun playing!

love, ver

betcha didnt know!

2006-03-25T00:24:00.000+08:00

got tagged by kim.oh well looks like fun.haha enjoy =)

1.Bold the following words that are true about you,
2. GREEN! the things you wish were true,
3.add one thing true about you,
4.and then tag onetwothreefourFIVE more people.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lens.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.(it's heaven on earth!)
I've been in a threesome.
I've been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.(maybe the word should be changed to everytime.)
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast/unclear.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have alot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
Dancing's the ultimate passion of my life.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single!
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
Sometimes I wish my faith was stronger.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergy to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have made a move a friend's significant past or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.(if you're just comparing those commercialized outlets offering home delivery)
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I'm a Democrat.
People talk about freedom of speech in a democratic country but I believe that is unattainable.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone i've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who i am now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have a love of languages
I absolutely love literature.

I have jumped off a bridge.

I love sea turtles.

I spend ridiculous money on makeup.

I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.

I'm proficient in a musical instrument.(drumming's my love!)

I worked at MacDonald's restaurant.

I hate office jobs.

I love sci-fi movies.

I think water rules.

I went college out of state.

I like sausages.

I love kisses.

I fall for the wrong people.

I adore bright colours.

I can't live without black eyeliner.

I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.

I usually like covers more than originals.

I can pick up things with my toes.

I can't whistle.

I can move my tongues in waves, much like a snakes slithers.

I have ridden/owned a horse.

I still have every journal i've ever written in.

I can't stick to a diet.(i cant be bothered with them)

I talk in my sleep.

I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distraction.

I think climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.

I have jazz in my blood.

I wear a toe ring.

I have a tattoo.

I can't stand at LEAST one person i work with.

I am a caffeine junkie.

I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.

I have been to over 15 conventions.

I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.

I'm an artist.

I only clean my room when necessary.

I like a person of the same sex.

I love being happy.

I am an adrenaline junkie.

I have riden an elephant.

I love chocolates and crowns!

I go to school NOT for the sake of lessons.(i socialize =p)

I can't ride a bicycle.

I have/have tried to cut myself.

I think i'm the only person crazy enough to do this at 6 in the morning without any sleep for the night.

I feel crazy.

I love tomatoes!!

I like peanut butter on bananas.

I've been told "you're on fire!".

I'm a netballer.

I believe in Serendipity.

I'm hoping he'll save the last dance for me.

i'm tagging anyone who comes to my blog and has yet to do this.enjoy guys! =D

my romantic rebel

2006-03-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

oh FINALLY!block tests are all over WOOHOO!but tt's only stage 1...we've 3 more obstacles to the end of it all.just have to hang in there i guess.not expecting good grades though.just praying that i'll scrape by =s
caught v for vendetta today with the class.fantastic show!loved the political talk in it.and my my...that V's such a romantic...sure knows how to woo a girl =p i think hugo weaving's a good actor though he didnt show that much in the matrix trilogies.he's the rebel with a cause in case u're wondering.and yes jane i am still fantasizing about that movie haha.v for vendetta...a must-catch for all!

remember remember the 5th of november

for the romantic rebel who lives forever!

my ingenious hero, merciful and true

this is THE ideal i pass on to you

orientation

2006-01-10T12:40:00.000+08:00

i'm glad i missed 1st week of school and though i've to do all the catching up on my school work now orientation sure was worth everything!it was super funn...every1 up on their feet cheering and going crazy.especially the ogls.need i say more?haha GO BLACKFOOT!WOOH!made some new friends and got to know some of the other ogls better too =)
the war games were very rough but damn enjoyable.my favourite was when the ogls played against each other. *BLACKOTA!!!* it rained during both war games but that just added to the high mood XD highlight of the week was indeed the last nite...the rave party that got all dancing.addictive =D

oh mama wo xi huan pili pala wo xi huan OH YYYYEEEEAAAAHHHH!
BLACKFOOT YO!

camp

2005-12-30T18:09:00.000+08:00

camp was super fun!but tiring.and my body aches but no i'm not pampered!sure hope i'll have an enthusiastic og. *crosses fingers* stupid allan chia ps-ed me...and for what reason?to go on a holiday -.-
misunderstood.coincidence.there goes my reputation again.time for my nerd act once more.maybe i should turn lesbian.

aud's place

2005-12-14T11:03:00.000+08:00

i'm at aud's place now blogging while she's still sleeping.it's been 2 very fun days so far! =D met aaron and jane yesterday in town.ooh i've finally found another more indecisive person than me: jane!hahaha my vote's still for the nike bag girl.which one did you get in the end?i swear that aaron walks superrrrr sloooowwly from tangs to lido -.- train up your stamina lah...long legs some more?hahaha =p

hmmm just found out somethin which's been changing my perspective of certain people who share the same religion as i do.it hurts that they consider themselves good strong people of the faith but yet are so judgemental and critical.and yet they consider it the utmost insult EVER when someone tells them their behaviour aint portraying the wonderful attributes their faith encourages.people say they cant tell my faith from the way i behave.at least i dont show such fervour for it but yet am so judgemental and critical of others' faults, and then distance yourself from them because you dont want their behaviour to taint you.please note here dear: even He accepted everyone and dined with sinners.so do me a favour?go read your Holy Book, you hypocrite.
disappointing huh?

missing out

2005-12-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

05S41's class chalet's tonight...with bbq too!but i cant go.UGH.i guess i've yet to understand the perspective of the two who govern my life.in my opinion theirs're still senseless and utterly twisted. Hell.

okie on a brighter note, 7th dec's gonna be a memorable day from now on =D i still cant believe it.and apparently neither can haoren rite?i still remember what u said k!thanks ar!haha =p

and my dear auddie u're the kok!not me!that's kokhead right back at ya XD

i miss S41 ='((

ver's friendship dedication

2005-11-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

A FRIEND

*is one that does NOT betray and spill secrets (when she herself said:"everythin said here stays within this table okay?" the joke of the year 2005.
*does not repay others' kindness by running to them only in desperation of a shoulder to cry on. talk about biting the hand that feeds you darlin'.
*INCLUDES everyone in their company and does not dismiss them with a high-pitched whine:"couples sit over there.i dont wanna see any mushy-mushies"
*is able to stand on her own two feet and not look so pathetic by crying to seek attention. grow up, babykins.
*is not jealous of her supposed friend's friendship with other people she herself holds dear. possessive,much?
*accepts her friends for who they are and not judge them by the degree of closeness she can develop with them just because they dont suit her character traits.so u may be more tomboy.please accept my utmost condolences Your Highness.
*does not demand others(without a please or thankyou no less!)to pay for her meals when she's hungry with no cash.no wonder they ignored you.please check the meaning of the word "pride" in thesaurus.

enough said.reality check here?you aint much of a loss.i didnt know u could afford to reject friends...thought u were craving for all you could get.

on a brighter note, finished preparations for dance for open house today...including all those stars on ice-cream sticks.haha.thanks for all the help guys =) hope it'll be fun that day.then after open house there's prep for orientation to look forward too.blackfoot! *stomps stomps*

fig and olive

2005-11-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

chinese ao paper was yesterday...not that i studied much fpr it anyway...all i'm praying feverishly is that i dont have to see mr yeo again next year...not that he's not a good tutor.i like his lessons and the entertainment but well, i dont wanna take that subject again.i'm lousy at it.cant even speak it well haha.
went towning after the exams with a few of the clique, jade and haoren.had fun...played pool.i managed to shoot in 3 in a row!woots!and all of them thought i couldnt pool.haha nahz in actual fact i cant.that was pure beginner's luck.had to miss out on kimmy's pool party after that...and the whole clique was there! *screams* i WISH i could go.trust me to get myself grounded for the evening -.- but on a happier note, at least i still had a 1st hand account of what was happening as the party went on...thanks for the entartainment fiance ~mwa
had a class dinner in town tonight...at some restaurant called fig and olive.beside hotel 81.ooh great place!hahaha okie jokes aside, the food was not bad...i like the crisscut fish with melted cheese! <3 <3 and the brownie was good too...if only i was not too full to enjoy it properly.ah well maybe another chance next time =) i swear our class is full of talented singers...they've got spunk!the mike corner was alive and singin' today huh?haha you go weijie!woots!i think we were kind of noisy...haha but hey, that's part of the fun! =D

<3 <3 <3

2005-10-29T11:42:00.000+08:00

nonono...aud you're wrong!dont be sad!

AUD'S STILL MY DARLING CHOCOLATE-CHIP MUFFIN!

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

waahaha.4 years and counting!

released

2005-10-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

i feel like dissing someone here but i think i've done enough in school today.anyway, you're not quite worth to take up space on my blog are you?just get one thing into your head: dont be rhetorical...dont you DARE let your words be empty promises.whatever you said today, PROVE IT.we'll be watching...and if it repeats, the consequences will be even nastier than today's.

today felt....good!the release of emotions was fantastic!!

and NO haoren i did not sound that fierce! *glares* if you're upset or pissed about it dont let it spoil your day alrite?we made yur point for ya =)

aud, i hope you're fine...cheer up okie?it's over so smile!dont let it drag you down.i'll be here for ya *hugs*
jade, had fun just talking with ya at causeway after they left...i sure enjoyed the girl talk!we should do this again ~mwa
kimmy, thanks for being there with us this morning...truly appreciate it, what a darling haha <3<3
dare sit with us huh?after what i saw you say?yes i can read lips...i'm smart enough for that.GOD!WHAT CHEEK!!! i'm so in love with yoshinoya. ooohh.
aww jade dont ya love my sarcasm? *winks*

i hope you read this.both of you.

2005-10-27T20:05:00.000+08:00

watched the legend of zorro today with some of the clique.the show's super good!lots of actions and very exciting.i think i screamed once or twice...did i haoren?lol.catherine zeta jones is SO BEAUTIFULLY GORGEOUS.whoa wad a girl.she can make me turn unstraight anytime <3 <3 <3
sat with darling in the theatre...provided me with a good pillow during the exciting scenes LOL.thanks kim!we were grabbing each other's hands during the show...haha and NO aud we werent doin what you thought we did! -.- methinks you need to have your eyes checked my strawberry muffin.
i know it's past but whenever i get reminded of it( by mention or by sight) it just comes back.vengeance anyone?

Rasalas Roars!!!

2005-10-22T12:18:00.000+08:00

met you at yoshinoya.thought you were a friend.but i could tell what you were sayin to him.i can read lips please sweetie. u're civil enough to me but i guess it's been all an act.i'd rather you show it outright.i dont think christians are supposed to be two-faced ey?

on a happier note,we had innova's 1st sports day yesterday!quite scaled down because of the fasting month.some found it rather boring...saw a few sleeping at the stands.lol nevertheless it wasnt that bad.still managed to have fun.highlight of the event was the inter-house cheerleading competition.Rasalas got 2nd!WOOHOO!was expecting 3rd to be honest.but i guess we got a nice surprise! *does split leaps in the air* congrats to Taurus and all the other houses too.you guys did very well.i especially liked the taurus routine =D oh and by the way, the stunts were nicely done.to adeel and juibian: u were great...very stable! =) best class eh S51?Way To Go!!!

*RASALAS ROARS*

hi all

2005-10-20T09:30:00.000+08:00

hello.audrey here.
im updating for ver.
lol.
lousy her.
leaving her blog to rot >_<

lalala.ahaha
shes doing pw.
so am i.
ok bye HAH

>.<

2005-10-09T01:05:00.000+08:00

change of mind, you disappear
it's just not right; the number four
escaping (or just not bothering?)
you aint being one i know no more.

all those days of long ago
now i get why she trashed you
cant blame her and you know why?
because i feel like doing so too

oh! but of course
you dont feel so
reflect on it and when you realise,
off the block to jump you'd go

change my mind, i'll just go
aint worth it, just not for me
exclusitivity? by all means
go ahead make the number three

it's just you though. the other two, i have to thank and am grateful for...to be my real friends still =)

verena updated

2005-09-10T00:46:00.000+08:00

okie okie!thanks for all the reminders on my tagboard.haha i will update at least once a week now...a promise!that i hope i can keep that is *crosses fingers*
anyway promos are drawing near...and i've not started studyin for them yet.oh no *panics* tthink it's about time i started huh.if i've got the discipline to yar.Jon jus sent me the promos schedule in advance the other night.THANKS alot...u sure succeeded in giving me a scare!lol.
there're more activities coming up in school these days.preparing for a dance for mid-autumn festival in school.from what i hear we've to come back to school in the evening to join in the celebrations.it's some night event actually.ugh i kinda find it VERY bohliao?!one wonders how many'll give it a miss though?hmmm. not to mention the dance...uhh to put it in a nice way, kinda makes us look like retards?there's this inter-house cheerleading competition for sports day.thank God its after promos.cos i've not done anythin about calling for practices yet.plus it doesnt help that other houses have already started practs.double shit =s aud n i are supposed to choreo a routine.i tink i'm a good procrastinator.haha =p ah well.
pw's quite okie now...just had an interview with QB the other day.hmmm the coordinator(or somethin) that we talked to is cute n sweet! =D haha right guys?they went absolutely ga-ga over her.too bad we cant have another interview with her...ey zaki?
going sentosa tomorrow.yayness!i can finally have the chance to change the colour of my skin.i'm so sick of being white.itz been a long time since i went to the beach too.miss it!okie that's all for today.cant tink of anythin else.i'll be back.i promise.
tata! *flutters fingers*

*%^$#@!

2005-07-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

my name's being mutated.and utterly HORRIBLY by the way.THANKS poo sweetie.
and thanks for tellin others about it too aaron darling.WOO.

school's gettin boring.swimming's the only fun thing now.somehow just cant be bothered about certain stuff...especially the usual homework and tests shit.hell.that applies to certain people sometimes.

comparison sucks.and u're so unaware of it.

i wanna break out.

MOS burger Lady

2005-06-28T23:46:00.000+08:00

MB lady's got it going on
she's all i've wanted, i've waited so long!
mos burger lady,
u're THE girl for me!
oh so voluptous, ooohh
i'm in love wif you, lady!

this song, typed on the brink of insanity's specially dedicated to:
*Puden
*Aaron
*Auddie (muacks!)
*Bryan
*Weiling

MOS BURGER ROCKS! rite guys? =p

luv, ver
~mwa

Ver's Recipes! ~yummm

2005-06-01T13:17:00.000+08:00

Ver's Recipes

Jelly
step 1:buy the ready-made ones(in packet form) from cold storage.
step 2:mix the crystal powder with hot water.
step 3:pour solution into plastic cups.
step 4:put into oven to steam.
voila! agar-agar.

French Toast (6 pcs)
step 1:crack 3 eggs into a bowl and stir.
step 2:use soft white bread(best wthout the peel)
step 3:dip bread as a whole piece into the eggs.
step 4:switch on the stove on medium heat.
step 5:stir fry for a few mins then add sugar(will turn black in colour and start flaking)
voila! french toast.

SEE?!i can cook alrite! XD wahahahaa.someone give me a recipe for choc chip cookies?maybe i should seek a job at mrs fields LOL.

try out my recipes and do give feedback on how they turn out okie?enjoy!
~mwa

my blog aint dead! xp

2005-05-29T01:02:00.000+08:00

okie okie!my blog aint dead yet people!haha here's my long overdue update(again).
lydia dun worry this time it doesnt start with "standing at the foyer..." anymore XD
dun mourn for my blog yet iswan...no need for a funeral or a RIP headstone.this purple butterfly's still very much alive and flitting around =D
SEE fei?my blog's PURPLE...not pink!go read my tagboard -.-
aud, i jus love one of the tags on your board!LOL it rocks.
had be youself day on friday...which marks the last day of school.well, technically though.i've still to go back to school for makeup lessons...then there's the mock summer physics test to consider.actually i kinda need it though.at least i'll have a rough idea what the standard will be like.not that i'm expecting to pass though i'll try. *sad*
anyway there were performances from various ccas on fri...nice show by the taekwondo ppl!the stagestalkers' acts were cute too haha.and the cheerleaders were not bad...keep it up!semm...no need for any worries rite?see everythin was fine =) aud brought balloons for us...haha had a fun time playing with them(especially the PURPLE one)...thx gal!1st someone said i was lyk some kinda kid playing with those balloons then he said i was very high that day.LOL as if! =p and ppl kept trying to burst them.thx daniel for trying to burst it in my hands!too bad it didnt work XD but u still succeeded later lah.i wuznt the one who screamed though haha.i tink.
chong:someone's an ass?lol i cant really say anythin about that though i would've agreed with you a week ago.haha.that person's very nice now.cant say i'm not happy about that =) *PLAYS WIF UR HANDFONE* XD

sting

2005-05-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

sometimes i dont know what to think.
the sting of your words is felt though i may forget it after awhile.dont tell me u're that clueless because i dont think u are.makes me always take note of my own words and make sure i'm not doing the exact same thing to others.
-hurt-

2005-05-13T22:22:00.000+08:00

standing at the school foyer where the computer terminals are and i'm blogging.zaki and faizal's here with me...looking over my shoulder and giving me stress...HELP.lol okie just kiddin.u guys make me laugh 24/7 u rock! =D
Iswan said i didnt mention his name in my previous entry(refer to tag)...the reason why that particular one is so short is because i'm saying hi to someone, whom i happen to find out, reads my blog.lol okie i shall plaster ur name all over this entry...better? =p
had physics make up lesson last sat in school together with s45. went out for lunch with thomas Iswan aud and some of the class after that. had a fun time talking at mos burger that day.some pretty interesting stuff wuz mentioned.now i know why u were so not yourself for the past week.hey Iswan cheer up okies?i can only remember the gist of what we were talking about tho...hmmm.we notice how a certain someone can act-cute with such skill =p aud dun follow okie!those faces can be so hilarious LOL.went around shopping for mom's day gifts after lunch.and someone i love suddenly disappeared only to reappear again at popular.pang-seh!hehe nahz just kiddin...we understand ;p
i'm not allowed to join cheerleading.and to think they didnt allow dance at 1st too.my parents.GO FIGURE -.-
Iswan now u owe me a similar entry!haha happy now? =p
okie gtg.bye all! *flutters fingers*

dropping by

2005-05-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

hello Mr.A having fun reading? =)

Image

2005-05-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

You dont know me well, yet you judge me.
Unfair?
You try to hide it behind your somewhat friendly manner to me.
wad a facade.i know you girl, it's still obvious.
Image huh.

to him: what you said today adds to what i already have.
you tried to explain but i wonder.
was it merely a cover up?
hid everything with a smile.
still hurts inside.

2005-04-24T23:38:00.000+08:00

woo.itz sure been a long time since i blogged!almost a month.but no aud, i dont wanna close my account =P blogging's kinda fun.some pretty interesting stuff's been happening since i last wrote an entry here.
after 1st 3 months we've been assigned new classes.the original s10 became 05s41.got some new classmates too...including aud! =D itz a miracle we still can concentrate and cope during tutorials.LOL.actually we planned to sit separately so as not to get distracted and start chatting.oh and we've our new uniforms already.the cutting's not bad but oh my, the colour! *covers eyes* we look like we're from yishun town sec.how nice.eeek.and the material's waterproof and i heard fireproof too!because of that we're literally baking in it.itz so hot and thick.try walking to causeway under the blazing sun in that.can faint.the material's not sweat-absorbent too.yuck.the skirt has pleats like that of yishun town too, but shorter in length.wonder if u can tell any other diferrences between our skirts and theirs?length-wise...LOL.
aud's n my reputations got tarnished recently by a certain someone in the school.seriously...is that the image we protray to others?!i'm disappointed in him.i used to think he wuz nice and friendly.until i heard his sarcasm and his way with words.he's quite capable of dissing u pretty badly.but sometimes i wonder if what he said's true...and if others thought the same way. *sad sad*
oh and we got bronze for dance in syf.very disappointed in that.we could've done better!we were so not coordinated at all...especially the timing.very messy.the mistakes we learnt to avoid somehow reappeared that day.coach wuz disappointed at all.the expression on her face....but at least we didnt get COP tho.that'd would've been real bad. *relieved* but at least i'd my 1st syf experience.good partnerwork tho gs! =)) u were stable...especially during the lifting.
went to sajc on thurs to support the soccer team...it wuz ijc against sajc.met quite a few old friends there...especially anuaar!miss him so!he should've stayed in ij -.- sa's soccer's quite good...there's one good player in the team.nice soccer skills.wuz fun meeting up wif char n gang.I MISS CHAR!must meet up again to go out okies?maybe on one of our shopping trips haha.when wuz the last time we did that?hmmm *tinks* okie gtg cya tata! *muacks muacks* -flutters fingers-

addidas jerseys!

2005-04-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

aud and i gave thomas minglee and joash hand tattoos during PW lecture.haha the consequences of boredom.joash's tattoo's the nicest!i lyk thomas's one too...soo pink! =P vern wuz busy tattoo-ing on aaron n puden too!LOL we can jus start some body art trend.
went to queensway with aaron puden and gang after meeting dad for lunch at bugis.melly n char came along too!woo I MISS THEM SO MUCH!esp chaaarrrrr...dun go wif lindsay...u're mine alrdy.
we went to make jerseys.my number's 13!my lucky number...hehe.chong put his name as 'slacky' on his shirt.i wunder why?hmmm....!had alotta fun with all of them there.we were so noisy in the shop i'm surprised we werent chased out >.< -hides my face- poor puden got bitten by char.i'm shocked u dared to do that LOL.
enjoyed my shoulder massages very much today...thanks to allison aaron n ian!u shld become my masseuse XD srry i kept laughing aaron...wuz jus too ticklish haha.
went to macs to eat.ian kept wanting to noe who's the person i call 'dear' in my fone.he refused to let me out n i wuz trapped at the tables.big bully!and btw we werent doin anythin funny melly.we're too innocent for that x) had to rush off for band pract after that but i wuz late.but yet agn...big surprise. *sheepish smile*
wuz so tired i came home and slpt so now i cant sleep.agn.this always happens.i need to avoid taking naps from now on.

comforts you

2005-03-27T18:54:00.000+08:00

wow i'm actually updating agn so soon after my last one x)
yippee!2day's EASTER!!!haha choc eggs n celebration! *somersaults n spins around* i lyk the atmosphere in church on this day.every1's so happy LOL.mayb if i'm in a crazy-enuff mood i'll buy choc eggs for the gang in school =p want one?
had some evangelistic programme in church on friday.wuznt that bad...quite funn in fact!haha played in the band for worship den had a detective mystery game after that.wuz forced to do some forfeits (so wad else is new?) in order to get certain clues.thx soo much, maung for making me dance i'm a genie in the bottle!and that "romantic scene" wif H proposing to me wuz juz so......not.y am i always gettin myself into this kinda trouble?lol oh well -shrugs-
auddie...*comforts you* shant elaborate here why...dun tink u'd want me to either =) jus dun remember.okie? *big hugs* i love you

til nx time, tata all *kisses*

orientation archelous!

2005-03-25T17:59:00.000+08:00

not been updating again...heh oops.okie joash i'll blog more often...thanks for the reminders =p
been involved in the 2nd orientation dis few days.aud n i are ogls for the same og.haha ppl were lyk saying our og cnfrm'll get screwed.heyy...it wuznt tt bad okie! x) the 1st one wuz more fun tho.wuz incharged of one of the arts og.mostly gals.hmmm.i've got nothin to say.commented enuff on that already.

1st day
got off to a boring start wif the principal's address in the morning.oh goodness tt ms yeo sure can talk alot.n it draaaggggsss on slowly.berwyn commented tt she wags her head as she speaks too!hahaha x) shall try to take notice of tt next time.the orientation tee's nice...but some of the colours were really ugly.esp green...rite thomas?haha dun worry u're lookin good as a nice caterpillar ;p the ogls got the nicest colour...dark bluuee!too bad dere's no purple.oh well.
had ice-breakers in the morning.dey were okie i guess.some were quite fun tho haha.esp the pass-the-polo-sweet one.at 1st aud n i were kinda sian...ironically the gals in our og were the ones gettin things started n being the outgoing ones.lol applaud dem for tt.2dae wuz the 1st time in a loong while i saw the canteen so packed.after lunch dere were the usual subject talks n stuff.were at the foyer hanging arnd.went to one of the talks wif aud thomas n iswan.we were more lyk gossiping than listening to the speakers haha.can become fellow gossipers!LOL.had dance after tt.thank God that wuz jus for 2 hrs.dun tink i cld've withstood the usual 3 hrs =s

2nd day
2dae wuz alot more fun dan yesterday.in the morn jules n ian were busy entertaining us wif their beautiful voices.thr darkess rox!thomas n nard were so amused haha.
we had only one major water bomb game.got half wet already even b4 the game started.by gillian!played dodgeball using water bombs.no1 really followed the rules...every1 jus anyhow whack haha.nvm we still had fun =p were planning on using aaron n puden as shields but din work.aud n i got totally drenched.thx so much for that Ian!made othrs wet too...so funn *winks*
had lunch at cwp pastamania.my fantastic cooking skills were being laughed at...AGAIN.thx for advertising dem for me auddie sweetie.nx wk i'll make jelly n bring dem to sch for u guys to taste....flaunt my cooking prowess!LOL.any1 up for it? =p dey were telling lame jokes at lunch.i swear my IQ's been halved by now.look at ian's face n i can start laffing all over agn.dey're jus hilarious.got to noe 2 new ppl 2dae.pretty sly sim hair!haha ;p jus realised the 'itz jus cool' logo is derived frm the word IJC!some1 tell me how slow can i get? *tinks tinks* came home n slpt til 9.now i cant slp.urk.

okie...a super long entry.until nx time.tata *muacks muacks* -fluttersfingers-

update update

2005-03-12T17:22:00.000+08:00

okie lyd i'm updating now...happy?
lol i've not been blogging for quite awhile...hmmm i usually only come online on weekends or friday so itz not very often.iswan u'd better tag me now!haha.i'm dying of laughter.jus read his wonderful tag frm someone hu said he's got a cute butt.omg.ooohh yes i agree *stares* -.-"
last week of school's been a little boring...quite a few dun turn up each day!been skipping tutorials(e unimpt ones lyk chi whr u only watch movies) and slacking in the canteen.quite a few brought guitars(acoustic n electric) to school n they started playing in the canteen.some of them've got some skills!kudos to chris, ian n gang.and guess wad renick can siiiinnnggg!u rock wif the elect guit too!i love sweet child of mine =D renick...sing idol the 2nd? *tinks tinks*
going to become an ogl...haha wunder wad it'll be lyk?hope it'll b fun for the 2nd intake.at least let dem enjoy the 1st 3 days of school.my sweetie's gonna be an ogl too! *jumps arnd* hope we can enjoy orientation together.nx wk's march hols alrdy. *celebrates* but gonna b so busy.dere's dance 3 times a week too.let's see how well my mom takes that ey?
started going back to my math tutorials..been skipping 3 wks worth of it.tink i'd better improve my attendance heh oops.dere's lrds dg in 9 hrs...as usual.ah well.meeting jearl in the morning for breakfast.whee i love bk's breakfast! =p
okie ciao *kiss kiss*

hyper seductive act-cute talking nonsense

2005-03-06T01:39:00.000+08:00

okie wad am i doin at nearly two in e morning blogging?haha tink i'm a li'l too hyper tonite...or shld i say dis morning?hmmm...talking on msn wif iswan n melly...dey nv cease to make me laff!full of jokes n nonsense...tt pair of wank buddies shld get some lessons on decency, rite sweethearts?gettin a little crazy...wooo *jumps arnd n somersaults*
srry chris dun tink i'd be proclaiming my o's results here!aint tt good enuff to be announced i shld tink.kinda disappointed...wuz hoping for a single pointer but ah well i'll deal.satisfied wif my grades now i guess, so itz alrite yupp.got a frigging B3 for english tho...the only issue i'm totally NOT happy abt!very disappointed in that cos i wuz expecting at least an a2, wif eng bring my forte subject n all.ah well.God's will ey?
going to church in a few hrs.lol i'm supposed to do somethin to tim.act-cute whiny n bimbotic for fun.u up for it big guy? *winks* u said i've nv acted like tt to u mar.haha.we'll see.....hmmm!uh-oh nt done my prep for dg later....AGAIN.man i gotta start changing tt bad habit of mine.mayb going out later wif jearl.she's off work yay!been a while since i went out wif her i tink.miss her....
okie gtg ciao! *winks n kisses* -flutters fingers-

I'M WELL!!!!!!! SQUEALS

2005-02-27T13:07:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeee!!!!!!!i'm well alr...all better yay *bounces up n down* man itz been hell for the past few days since tues.felt lyk f*cked up shit, cldnt get outta bed n had a fever tt kept coming back....burnt up to 38.5 degrees too wth.jus wonderful.guess i ate too much heaty goodies during the cny season.siiigh ah well i've learnt my lesson.but itz sooo tempting i cnt stop eating dem sometimes heh =p plus i'd to miss sch wch really sucked cos actually sch's fun wif frens' company n all.i esp missed my darlingggg!!my othr half...cnt live wifout her intoxicating presence.okok better stop b4 i sound lyk a les(some alr tink i'm one -rolls eyes- ) anw i'm back...did any1 miss meee? *winks*
sch's off for e whole of nx wk yippee!haha cnt wait to tk a break n haf some fun at last.dere's dance on tues n thurs too.muznt 4get to go.aud n vern u guys'd better NOT skip!mon's results...but....hmmm i still aint scared yet.dunno y.i'm more amused by the deep trouble the 3 of us r goin to b in wif susan leong on mon.sigh.3 guesses she'll b picking on our uniforms n hair too? -.- wunder how twisted her face'll look lyk when she sees us? *tinks tinks*
skipped church dis morn.din prepare anythin for dg(since when do i??) plus i need my rest too.mayb go for a movie later wif jearl.sick of stayin home bored to death anw.
okie tt's all for now cya! *muacksmuacks* -flutters fingers-

screwed up physix

2005-02-23T16:37:00.000+08:00

okok cos of a kind reminder frm someone i'll update my blog.haha yea been a while since i've laz updated i admit so thx lah k? =) been sick for e past few days...had a slight fever on tues so went to c a doc n she said i'd throat infection.took e fever med she precribed n guess wad?woke up dis morning wif a higher fever!wth...dare to call herself a doc summore?tink even i can do a way better job!
hope i'll b better by tmr...kinda miss sch...haha stay at home so boring...at least sch's more fun wif frens n all!been catching up on my hw 2dae.physix is jus killin me...i HATE projectile motion!some1 hu noes how to do tt topic help me pls??still haf chi compo to do...eee so mafan =x been rather behind in my lectures too.need to catch up on dat.darling lend me ur notes!
been so bored 2dae i'm actually surfing thru frenster haha.gues i've got nuthin better to do plus i'm sick of stayin in bed.okie tt's all for now byee!

VIDEOS

2005-02-18T23:15:00.001+08:00

okie dis is an update for the past week.mon wuz vday n it wuz fun!haha thx for all the flowers n gifts.thx 4 e bouquet gil...dey're very pretty! char: ur pink earrings jus rox lol.matches some of my clothes perfectly *smiles* fr n shaun: verry nice presents u got...lurv e colour!bet u guys enjoyed buyin tt for aud n i ey?btw ur pink rose's still alive n tt wooden heart's pretty too! =) mel n iswan: thx 4 e perfume!real authentic anna sui not...or e fake pirated version?heehee ;p kiddin kiddin!and to all the othr ppl, thanx too! nard: luv ur star earrings!told ya u've got good taste haha.

dance's gettin more vigorous...but more fun too.nt as 'xiong' as gym yet tho.jus waiting for tt to happen.lol.hope we'll b able to make it =s hmmm...but e sch's expecting a gold for us...i dun tink we can make it...a bronze mayb??

18th feb...a rather significant date i shld say!haha nard aud mel n iswan shld noe exactly wad happened 2dae in sch ey?sth hott jus happened.nice video!cnt blif i actually did tt...i'm still in shock...i tink.all cos of tt guy hu juz had to remind dem bt e dare i owe nard...all ur fault! -points at ya- n thx for e unwanted tips on how to do tt mel!bet u're pro at it alr.lol

okies tt's all for now tata! *flutters fingers*

purple or pink? tinks tinks

2005-02-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

i'm jus gettin all confused by those tagging my board.the debate on e colour of my blog's amusing me...lol!hey ppl i tink itz purple...well at least itz the closest to purple tt i cld find.
yay ppl r linking me but i dunno how to link up.sigh ah well.shall get aud to tch or sth.n i wanna change the design of my blog too...wad do u call it...a blogskin?
went out 2dae...wuz quite fun.dinno dey cld tok so much.some ppl jus kept walking off so fast n leaving us behind.thx alot...mean pokes >.< being dared to do sth on mon.haha shall c if i can do it wifout laffing.jus realised dere'll b ppl watching...hw can it b "so easy" as it wuz commented?making many bets wif ppl lately...so far i've lost one alr.oh no gonna b even more broke =s hope i win at least one haha.
tata *muackz muackz* -flutters fingers-

happy cny!

2005-02-10T12:34:00.000+08:00

happy cny to everyone!okie i noe i'm abit slow in giving my best wishes to all but ah well wuz too preoccupied to blog laz nite.
celebrations in sch wuz so freaking boring!the only fun i had wuz crapping wif bryan anuaar n gang.darling wuznt happy tt dae bt sth...hey girl cheer up k?srry tt i added to it somehw too. *hugs*
all cos of sebass(howeva ur name's spelled, u idiotic photographer) dere wuz a verry nice foto taken of me n some1else.hw emabarrassing tho itz nice lah.haha so clear too...good fotographic skills(my foot) -.- jus wait i'll make u pay mister! =p
okie tt's all 4 now...meeting darling later on in e evening...cnt wait yay! *jumps arnd* tata all!
-flutters fingers-

testing testing...

2005-02-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

testing 1...2...3...do pardon e plain-ness on dis. ah well gotta get ppl to help me wif e template n all. get some pix uploaded as my backgrnd too mayb? lyd help me! -whines- HAHA